Oh Indiana…

Sometimes it’s so weird to be back!  Not for any particular reason really… just that to see everyone with their families and kids is still kind of strange for me!  I’m so far from that place in my life right now.  Someday, I really want children.  I think I’d be a great mom and that my kids will actually contribute to society in some way (unlike the kids we see on ‘reality tv’), but I also just don’t want to grow up yet – Not in that sense anyway!  haha.

I mean… is 25 really that old?   It is here!  When I went out for my birthday the other night, one of my friends said she thought that 21 was old to be having her daughter.  I was like, “what?”  You’ve got to be kidding me!  I guess it’s just one reason why I’m really glad that I got out when I did.  I know that my friends LOVE their lives… but oh man… a husband and kids and then what?  Then what do you do?  I’m saving all of that stuff for last… I’ll figure all of that out later when I’m not too busy trying to figure out everything else.  haha.  Why in the world would I want to bring a child or a man into my confusing life?  I can’t even decide what I want for lunch, let alone who I want to spend my life with or what school to send my child to!  And it’s not something I even want to think about yet. 

My clock just hasn’t started ticking, and I’ll be honest in saying that sometimes that worries me!  But I’ve never been wrapped up in relationships or getting married.  I have never thought about it.  I just don’t care.  Most of the time, I can’t stand boys!  I want one that adores me, and that I can equally adore.  One that I don’t have to worry about… who is independent, yet not afraid to be with someone.  I’m very much independent, and it’s hard for me to wrap my head around being with someone else most of the time.  It’s too much work, and it’s never worth it.  I hope someone changes my mind someday.  But until then, I’m going to continue doing my thing and being happy for those who have found what they’re looking for.  I just hope they’re not making decisions based on stereotypes and age, instead of what’s in their hearts!