I know the title up there says “20-something” and that a lady should never reveal her age… But I’m going to reveal mine because I turn “old” this year – (no offense to those older than me – you are not old! I’m just old for me!)  Yep – the big Two-Five.  Halfway to 50, 5 years to 30.  Nooooooo!!!  I’m a little depressed about this, granted I’ve still got 6 months and 3 days to worry about it… It’s my half-birthday on Sunday, which is exactly what triggered these thoughts to begin with.  I’m just trying to think about what I’ve accomplished and I’m pretty disappointed to be quite honest.  Or really, I guess it’s what I haven’t accomplished yet that I thought I would by now.  That’s more of what I’m feeling.  My youth is slipping away and I’m wasting it!  Or am I?  How do I know?  What should I be doing at this point in my life?  I think that’s a very gray answer… different for everyone I suppose.

I would hate to wake up one day in 40 years and think back to this time in my life and want to change it.  But I guess life can only be viewed from the present – the future is a mystery and the past is history.  The only point in our lives under our control is the now that we live in…  And even that is sometimes out of our hands!  I feel that mine is ALWAYS out of my hands.  Haha. Someone else makes my schedule with complete disregard to how I may feel about it – obviously.  This Monday-Friday 8:30 am to 10 pm thing is getting real old real fast.  5 weeks in a row?   Ew.  I practically have to schedule my roommate in if I ever want to see her.  Haha.  But tonight, I’m going to ask for some days off :) On February 16th, I’m getting my hair colored if it’s the last thing I do!  I can’t go around the ‘wood looking like this for much longer.  And by “this” I mean brunette and not blonde.  

It’s just such a catch-22!  The second I ask for a night off, I’m going to have to make it up on a Saturday or a Sunday…  And having those days off is really key to my basic survival at this point!  I just wish I was putting all of those hours into something I can love and nurture into something beautiful, such as a social life =)

But I do plan on having a fabulous weekend this time.  I know I said that last time, but no one is taking it away from me this time!  No one I tell you!  I’m excited to see Jen & Abby on Saturday night, and then I’m going shopping for some jeans!  Woo-hoo!  New jeans!

 

-HWH-